My Son and His Wife Left Me Out of Christmas, but When They Found Out What I Did With $31,000, Everything Changed<\/p>\n
I was standing in the produce aisle at the Kroger on Princeton Road on December 21, holding two packages of fresh thyme and trying to decide which one looked less wilted, when my daughter-in-law said it.<\/p>\n
I\u2019d called my son\u2019s cell phone. It was the middle of a Saturday afternoon, and Adam usually picked up on the second ring. But this time a woman\u2019s voice answered.<\/p>\n
\u201cHi, Joanne.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cOh. Renee. Hi, honey. Is Adam there? I just wanted to ask whether I should bring wine on Wednesday. Red or white. I couldn\u2019t remember what you were serving.\u201d<\/p>\n
There was a short pause.<\/p>\n
\u201cAdam\u2019s in the shower,\u201d Renee said. \u201cBut actually, Joanne, I\u2019m glad you called. We\u2019re spending the holidays with my family this year. You don\u2019t need to come.\u201d<\/p>\n
I stood very still in the produce aisle.<\/p>\n
\u201cOh,\u201d I said. \u201cI thought dinner was still at your house.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cIt is. My mother\u2019s coming over to cook.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cDoes Adam know?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cOf course he knows.\u201d Her voice had an edge to it. \u201cWe\u2019ve talked about it.\u201d<\/p>\n
Behind me, a woman with a full cart asked whether I was finished with the herbs.<\/p>\n
I put both packages of thyme back on the display. I moved my cart.<\/p>\n
\u201cAll right,\u201d I said into the phone.<\/p>\n
\u201cOkay. Great. Merry Christmas, Joanne.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cMerry Christmas, Renee.\u201d<\/p>\n
She hung up.<\/p>\n
I stood in front of the bananas for a long time.<\/p>\n
On Thanksgiving weekend, sitting in my kitchen after the pie, Adam had told me, \u201cSame plan for Christmas, Mom. Come around noon.\u201d I\u2019d written it on the calendar beside my refrigerator, the one from Walter\u2019s insurance agent with a different covered bridge every month. Under December 25, in my handwriting: Noon. Adam\u2019s.<\/p>\n
I looked down into my cart.<\/p>\n
Whole-berry cranberry sauce, two cans, because Adam has hated the jellied kind since he was six and once said it looked like something a doctor would take out of you. Clementines, a whole box, for Lily, who is ten and eats them like candy and leaves the peels in little spirals on the coffee table.<\/p>\n
A big squeeze bottle of yellow mustard, because Noah, who is seven, puts mustard on practically everything, including, once, a pancake. Underneath all of it, two bags of pecans and two refrigerated pie crusts, because I make the pecan pie every Christmas and have for thirty-six years.<\/p>\n
I was sixty-two. Walter had been gone for two years. This would be my third Christmas without him.<\/p>\n
I\u2019d been looking forward to it. That\u2019s the embarrassing part. I\u2019d been looking forward to sitting on Adam\u2019s couch in the middle of the afternoon with a cup of coffee, listening to Lily and Noah argue over whose turn it was to hand out the presents. Walter always handed out the presents.<\/p>\n
He wore a ridiculous red Santa hat he got at a Walgreens in 1994 and called out every name in a big booming voice like he was announcing hockey players at a game. \u201cAnd now, from Grandma, number twelve, the right winger, NOAH JAMES KESSLER!\u201d The kids would scream.<\/p>\n
After he died, Lily and Noah fought about who got to do it. Last year Lily won. She wore the hat. It came down over her eyes.<\/p>\n
I finished my shopping. I don\u2019t know why. I suppose because I was already there, and the cart was already full, and walking away from a full cart in the middle of a grocery store is the kind of thing that makes people stare.<\/p>\n
I paid. Eighty-seven dollars and forty cents.<\/p>\n
Outside, a cold wind was pushing loose receipts across the parking lot in little circles. The sky over Hamilton was the color of dishwater. I loaded the bags into the trunk of my Buick, and I sat behind the wheel with the engine running and the heater blowing, and I took out my phone.<\/p>\n
I typed a message to Adam.<\/p>\n
Renee says Christmas plans have changed. Please call when you have a minute.<\/p>\n
I read it four times before I sent it. I took out a sentence that said I\u2019m hurt. I took out another one that said You could have told me yourself. I left it plain.<\/p>\n
Then I put the phone face down on the passenger seat. And instead of driving home, I drove across town to the Westdale Community Resource Center.<\/p>\n
Walter volunteered at Westdale for the last six years of his life.<\/p>\n
It\u2019s a low brick building on the west side of Hamilton that used to be a Kresge\u2019s back in the sixties. Now it\u2019s a food pantry and a clothing closet and a place where people can get help with rent and utilities and finding a job. They serve a hot lunch three days a week in what used to be the store\u2019s stockroom. On the front window, somebody painted a sun with a smiling face years ago, and nobody has ever had the heart to scrape it off.<\/p>\n
Walter started going there after he retired from the post office. He\u2019d been a mail carrier for thirty-four years, the same route on the north end of town for most of them. He knew every dog and every porch and every widow who\u2019d wave at him from her window at eleven fifteen. After he retired, he said he didn\u2019t know what to do with his hands.<\/p>\n
So he went to Westdale. He delivered groceries to people who couldn\u2019t get out. He drove older neighbors to their doctor\u2019s appointments in his Buick. He repaired anything Clare, the director, put in front of him. A broken shelf. A wobbly table. A freezer that made a noise. The door on the supply cabinet that wouldn\u2019t close right.<\/p>\n
He came home every Tuesday and Thursday tired and happy, smelling like coffee and cardboard boxes, with stories about the people he\u2019d met. A man named Gus who\u2019d been a welder and had lost three fingers. A young mother with four kids who\u2019d never once missed a single week. An old woman who\u2019d taught him to say thank you in Polish.<\/p>\n
I went with him sometimes. Not often. I\u2019m not the volunteer type, I used to say. I\u2019m the home-and-hearth type. I\u2019d send cookies with him instead.<\/p>\n
After he died, I didn\u2019t go back for almost a year.<\/p>\n
Clare looked up when I walked in that Saturday afternoon. She was behind the front counter in a red Westdale sweatshirt with reading glasses pushed up on her head, sorting through a box of donated canned goods. She\u2019s about fifty-five, with short gray hair and a voice that sounds like she\u2019s been shouting across warehouses for thirty years, because she has.<\/p>\n
\u201cJoanne,\u201d she said. \u201cHi there. Dropping something off?\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cA few groceries,\u201d I said. \u201cMy dinner plans changed.\u201d<\/p>\n
Clare took her glasses off her head and looked at me.<\/p>\n
She didn\u2019t ask what happened. She just glanced at my face for about two seconds.<\/p>\n
Then she reached for her coat.<\/p>\n
\u201cLet\u2019s see what you\u2019ve got,\u201d she said.<\/p>\n
We went out to my car together in the wind. She looked in my trunk. She held up the cans of whole-berry cranberry sauce, the box of clementines, the pie crusts, the bags of pecans, the squeeze bottle of yellow mustard.<\/p>\n
\u201cWe can take the sealed pantry items and the fruit,\u201d she said. \u201cNot the refrigerated stuff. Health department rules. I\u2019m sorry.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u201cThat\u2019s fine.\u201d<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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